Even though I look like one, neh?
There's been a nifty copy and paste meme going 'round, both with and without pictures, related to the recent 'spate' of children who have taken their lives. Ostensibly, because they were bullied. Ostensibly, because they were gay. One, in particular, is truly heinous because he had been recorded, video and audio, without his knowledge or permission. Which really? I'm out of words big enough. I'm not sure they exist.
But I'm not here to spread the word.
Folks, this is not much more than new asphalt and striping on the road to hell. Best of intentions, of which I am very sure.
Not much more than that. Maybe after the 20th is gone, and the purple whatever is in the wash, you might think about it. Maybe. Do you really think that's good enough?
Do you really think any of this is new?I've been telling you for years this group is AT-RISK.
Every single day. This group is at risk. That doesn't mean the possibility simply exists, oh no. This group kills itself
at a rate so much higher than the general population it's painful. And has been. Probably longer than the numbers have been split out by gender identification, and folks - it hasn't been that long folks though that was even important. When it wasn't important, it was because those weirdo kids had enough wrong with them that nothing would save them anyway. Do I remember those days? PLEASE.
And if they were not killing themselves, other people were more than happy to do it for them - if they knew. That's why it's called a hate crime, Virginia. That's why.
I don't know if it's a good thing or not that I can remember DADT being a means to 'protect' the members of our military at risk. Why yes, yes it was justified in that very way once. If you didn't know, nobody would have an unfortunate accident, doncha see?
So no - one day wearing a color is NOT going to cut it. Not for this little red hen.
And the fact this is merely considering
this one group with regards to suicide also makes my blood boil just that bit higher.
Everyone knows someone who wasn't famous by the time they were 30 and ended it suddenly. I thank the Dean I had in college who worked with curriculum specifically to target us in our 40's - when were were barely old enough to drink legally. "When you get there, realize that you're forty and this isn't what you had planned - I don't want you guys to kill yourselves because you're forty and don't know what the next step should be." Direct quote.
It's more than 'you shouldn't desire your own demise because you're gay' - it's 'your demise is never the answer to whatever.' And by the way, remove the word 'should' - it's a bad habit and doesn't do much of anything to help.
It gets better? It changes
, darlings. You get to decide who you are going to be, who you get to love, what you do to make your daily living and where you want to do it. People survived the Holocaust hanging onto the concept that they deserved to live and there was nothing wrong with them
- you can too. And if you have any question about that?
You can come to me. Seriously - there are methods to reach me right through this journal that work pretty damn well. You can come to me. I will be here, even after the 20th, even after the purple whatever is threads and lint. You can come to me.
And I will answer.
Believe me. I'm death on teasing, no pun intended. I'm really not very nice to mean people - and I have little fear of people bigger than me. (Ask Jim about the Avis incident with the Marine in Oakland after 9/11.) I was taught by someone who knew the fine art of wigging out your opponent - people expect you to be scared. Don't be. They want to sue you? That takes at least a phone call and they're really too busy with you to do that in the thick of things.
When you're right, you're right - that also helps. So no - if I see someone being picked on? I tell. Oh man. I am the biggest tattletale on the block and now I have a cell phone. FEAR ME.
Because this makes me THAT angry.
I may find you a better, more experienced resource to talk to - because I do know my limits and I'm not the trained professional, at best the first-aid station. You really want to know who needs this attention? The Hopeline, 1-800-SUICIDE and may they remain fully funded and available 24/7. Afraid someone is going to use that phone number information if you call it? Send an email.
I am never going to forget that you know what you want better than I do. Believe it. This is not my chance to 'change' any part of you 'for the better.' That's your job.
But I will answer the phone.
I will call in your accident on the freeway if I don't see you doing it first.
I will have your back if I see someone taking advantage of you in a dark hallway at a con.
I will pick up your screaming child if you don't.
I will tell you how brilliant you are when you forget.
And I will throw you in the pool if you're an idiot and need a different perspective on things.I will not assume anyone else has already done it and I don't have to worry.
Not just for a day, but for always.
If you're going to wear the purple - make sure you go to bed on the 20th hoarse from talking. That's all I can ask for one day's work.
Always do your best.
If you make a mess, clean it up.
And never forget your impact on others. That includes offing yourself, dumbass.
*grumble grumble grumble*