Well, I did it.

[kyburg]

I just went through the friends list and checked to see when the last post was.

In a lot of cases, journals who had even added me back didn't have a single entry. *sighs*

Delete, delete, delete.

Sometimes, you have to treat people like wild animals. No, not to capture them and put them in cages, but to respect their right to behave just as they feel the need to.

I could take it personally. They could take it personally. In the end, what a waste.

Nobody ever meant me harm. Believe me, I'd know. It takes more effort.

You have to earn the trust of a wild animal. And in some cases, you won't ever make it.

Delete, delete, delete.

Yes, I've trimmed the list. Of folks who have closed me off, or stopped journalling - I'll never know for sure, and if they wanted to shut me out - it's their right. Without actually confronting me, sure. It's their right.

I am not everyone's slice of apple pie.

And while I am okay with that - really, it's best I am, I don't have a choice - there is a part that wonders just what it was, if it was something...or nothing?

With these deletions, it's nothing. Dead air. I have no idea and likely never will know.

Once, a person spoke to me, and I wanted to listen. I listened long after the story was told - and yeah, I feel a little foolish.

Such is my life. *grins a bit* Always late to the party, that's me.

And always asking for it, too. There's a part of me that always wants to befriend, to listen, to understand. My own headspace is too narrow, too confining - and I've said as much. A room full of people just like me is boring - and at times, scary. That's the writer, the journalist - always curious, always nosing about for a good story.

And right now, a little lonely too. A life is a life is a life - in a number of journals, the book has now been closed and put on shelf. *slaps self* Aw, get over it.

Timid wild animals. Why not think of them that way....

Comments

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[ecstaticlght.livejournal.com]

I surely made up for their lack in one day alone.

[glaw2424.livejournal.com]

I'm new in your LJ town.
Usually after someone adds me I will add them back then grab a bowl of popcorn, sit back and do some reading.
My time on your LJ has been limited, but I'll catch on soon.
:)

the way I think of it....

[tomlemos.livejournal.com]

it's like a daily newspaper for me. I read everyone's personal news. if someone wants to subscribe, they do, if they want to stop, they stop. I check my list every so often and pare it down, but I'm also not one to add too many people by myself, that is, I usually add someone if they've added me to their LJ. Otherwise, I have my friends who've been here for however long I've been writing this thing.

Amazing. It doesn't seem so long ago that I started doing this. But it has been since October of 2001 and now we're approaching 2004.

It's just my daily (for me) newspaper.... in fact. i'm gonna be in reruns. I found a stretch I feel like reliving.

come visit.

[lux-ramone.livejournal.com]

Hmmm,i've checked my friends list and see a few who i don't think have posted in about a year...i never noticed! :)
I'm on a few communities and LJ feeds and some really nice people as friends who do post that i don't miss the "lurkers"...i do wonder what's happened to them.
On my other LJ i was told i posted too much. :)

[pagawne.livejournal.com]

Hey, you make interesting reading, at least *I* think so. I don't post oftenin any case. More in the last couple of day than in weeks.

My eprsonal opinion, it is Your journal, and I am allowed to visit, and good manners are required when visiting.

Have a nice day.

[vertamae.livejournal.com]

I just did the same. My criteria were: people who never responded to very complimentary compliments I left for them. People who write in all lower case. People whose lives mean nothing to me, I don't know them, they don't communicate with me, we'll never get to know each other in any way, not even in the Interweb way. Or all of the above. It's not the end of the world. :)

[sisterdark.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you kept me on. I haven't posted enough in the past few months, and I certianly haven't commented enough, but I do enjoy reading your entries :)

[kyburg.livejournal.com]

Coming from you, that's high praise. We've been around the block a couple of times on this thing, haven't we?

[cornetdude.livejournal.com]

I'm glad I made the cut...or didn't make the cut, however that works.
I enjoy reading your journal. You're very real, you don't mince words, and I just like you.

[kyburg.livejournal.com]

And I'll be able to live two weeks on that compliment alone...thanks.

[sliderkta.livejournal.com]

Thanks for keeping me on the list.

Regarding your LJ, I'm pretty quiet. I read it and it makes me think... alot. But I'm afraid if I post my responses to certain issues, I'll end up doing more harm than good. I was born in the year of the fire dragon. Hint, hint. ^^;

The thing I don't need is losing LJ buddies becuase of an opinion.

I have had plenty of empty LJs link to my journal. And it's frustrating. I wish to remove them from my mutual friends list, but I can't. All that can be done is don't add them back.

Ooops... I'm rambling... ^^;

--Kadiya