It's another one of those -
May. 14th, 2009 02:52 pmSlept like crap last night. But, I finished the birthday sake! It seemed appropriate to finish off the day with something cherished, rare and singular.
God, I am going to miss that cat. It's another one of those - if I start crying, I won't stop. And what will I get of it?
More tired. So, it's easy to justify not doing it. Long years of practice, folks. And my memory is too good not to forget what crying until exhaustion actually feels like.
I don't have the energy for that right now.
*sighs* Like another bead on the string - another pet has had her time with me and has now moved on.
Do me a favor - anyone fostering kittens or caring for elderly cats, I have some food you can use. It's not suitable for any other purpose and I can't return it. I'll toss it up here first - then I start calling all the cat rescues in the area, and baby - there's a bunch of them. Vet had us buy a whole flat of it. Still do NOT know what she was thinking.
This morning, I actually had enough time to sit and work jigsaw puzzles with Xander and not rush. My nose is just about clear of gunk, and the cough is less. I'll be well soon. And the kitty is fine now. She's just not here anymore.
I may have to hang out at daycare and meet some parents soon - he's making some really good friends down at daycare that we might want to set up playdates with soon.
Which reminds me, I have some calls to make. Will also have to get some perspective soon on the reality that I am really NOT the only one making calls, following up and taking care of stuff.
It just feels that way right now.
Someone bake me a cake?
God, I am going to miss that cat. It's another one of those - if I start crying, I won't stop. And what will I get of it?
More tired. So, it's easy to justify not doing it. Long years of practice, folks. And my memory is too good not to forget what crying until exhaustion actually feels like.
I don't have the energy for that right now.
*sighs* Like another bead on the string - another pet has had her time with me and has now moved on.
Do me a favor - anyone fostering kittens or caring for elderly cats, I have some food you can use. It's not suitable for any other purpose and I can't return it. I'll toss it up here first - then I start calling all the cat rescues in the area, and baby - there's a bunch of them. Vet had us buy a whole flat of it. Still do NOT know what she was thinking.
This morning, I actually had enough time to sit and work jigsaw puzzles with Xander and not rush. My nose is just about clear of gunk, and the cough is less. I'll be well soon. And the kitty is fine now. She's just not here anymore.
I may have to hang out at daycare and meet some parents soon - he's making some really good friends down at daycare that we might want to set up playdates with soon.
Which reminds me, I have some calls to make. Will also have to get some perspective soon on the reality that I am really NOT the only one making calls, following up and taking care of stuff.
It just feels that way right now.
Someone bake me a cake?
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Date: 2009-05-14 10:25 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-05-14 10:27 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-05-14 10:30 pm (UTC)I could surely use some kitten lurve - yes, I surely could.
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Date: 2009-05-14 10:49 pm (UTC)*sends virtual cake* (I don't have time to bake this week at all, alas).
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Date: 2009-05-15 03:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-05-15 02:25 pm (UTC)I wish I could bring you a cake AND a pie!
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Date: 2009-05-15 03:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-05-15 07:28 pm (UTC)*sigh*
Hopefully catharsis. A lancing of a grief-filled abscess. A pouring-out.
It may need to be lanced more than once.
-- Lorrie
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Date: 2009-05-15 08:26 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-05-18 07:07 pm (UTC)