Well. Crap.
Dec. 14th, 2009 09:08 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kyburgOkay, the trifecta is just about complete for the third time. I'm good about keeping it on the QT, down low and so on - but this is getting pretty fsked up, even for me.
God. I can ask, right? Show me where things are going WELL and remind me often in the time ahead. Because the tendency is always to look where things are going against my wishes and desires. And then try to fix the unfixable. I can always try, yes? I've been doing pretty well, so far - but I'm getting worried.
Please - people. Finding joy in the midst of disaster is often the only way to survive it. Allowing yourself a break from the pain doesn't negate its importance or validity. And gallows humor is a terribly useful thing to develop, and I recommend it highly.
(Talking to family about today's Christmas pageant at preschool, we found out Jim's older brother just got taken to the curb by his second wife. Yeah. This. Week. Marriage almost twenty years old. So glad I'm not driving that bus, or even near the bus station.)
I'm going to go have some more tea.
God. I can ask, right? Show me where things are going WELL and remind me often in the time ahead. Because the tendency is always to look where things are going against my wishes and desires. And then try to fix the unfixable. I can always try, yes? I've been doing pretty well, so far - but I'm getting worried.
Please - people. Finding joy in the midst of disaster is often the only way to survive it. Allowing yourself a break from the pain doesn't negate its importance or validity. And gallows humor is a terribly useful thing to develop, and I recommend it highly.
(Talking to family about today's Christmas pageant at preschool, we found out Jim's older brother just got taken to the curb by his second wife. Yeah. This. Week. Marriage almost twenty years old. So glad I'm not driving that bus, or even near the bus station.)
I'm going to go have some more tea.
