Well. Crap.
Dec. 14th, 2009 09:08 pmOkay, the trifecta is just about complete for the third time. I'm good about keeping it on the QT, down low and so on - but this is getting pretty fsked up, even for me.
God. I can ask, right? Show me where things are going WELL and remind me often in the time ahead. Because the tendency is always to look where things are going against my wishes and desires. And then try to fix the unfixable. I can always try, yes? I've been doing pretty well, so far - but I'm getting worried.
Please - people. Finding joy in the midst of disaster is often the only way to survive it. Allowing yourself a break from the pain doesn't negate its importance or validity. And gallows humor is a terribly useful thing to develop, and I recommend it highly.
(Talking to family about today's Christmas pageant at preschool, we found out Jim's older brother just got taken to the curb by his second wife. Yeah. This. Week. Marriage almost twenty years old. So glad I'm not driving that bus, or even near the bus station.)
I'm going to go have some more tea.
God. I can ask, right? Show me where things are going WELL and remind me often in the time ahead. Because the tendency is always to look where things are going against my wishes and desires. And then try to fix the unfixable. I can always try, yes? I've been doing pretty well, so far - but I'm getting worried.
Please - people. Finding joy in the midst of disaster is often the only way to survive it. Allowing yourself a break from the pain doesn't negate its importance or validity. And gallows humor is a terribly useful thing to develop, and I recommend it highly.
(Talking to family about today's Christmas pageant at preschool, we found out Jim's older brother just got taken to the curb by his second wife. Yeah. This. Week. Marriage almost twenty years old. So glad I'm not driving that bus, or even near the bus station.)
I'm going to go have some more tea.
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Date: 2009-12-15 12:17 pm (UTC)Gallows humor is good.
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Date: 2009-12-16 12:03 am (UTC)Example:
Michael and I were at Toys R Us the other night (he had an Angel Tree child to buy for, I tagged along). He stopped at the Schleich display and picked up a figure of a bunch of baby chicks to show me (because I have two ceramic baby chicks on a shelf for whatever reason). I said, "I think you've had enough chicks to last you a while..."
I later asked him if my joke-cracking (this was not the first nor will it be the last joke I've cracked about his infidelity) made him feel like a dick, since that is not my intention at all. Humor is totally a coping mechanism over here. He thought about it for a bit and said no, so whew. I'll keep cracking my jokes...
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Date: 2009-12-16 12:20 am (UTC)(That's about all I can come up with for gallows humor right now...)
Tea. Sounds good to me too. Off to brew some Moroccan Mint Green Tea. Yum!