Mmmm. Saturday.
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ceolyn's bridal shower. I suck.
I was hoping to find a Darth Tater, and didn't.
I'm also quite female today, which is some ways is good - but I've been told my body is playing games with my head in this regard, and I should ignore the fact. It's also been a full cycle now, and I still don't know if I have insurance coverage to go foward with Dr. Whiz-bang. I shall remind his office of this fact Monday. Gr.
There are no good answers forbeing_homeless. What kind of system is it that when you finally qualify for Medicare, it's bad news? Ours. Mean it.
And the worst part? She's not over-reacting. And I'm not trying to minimize any part of what she's feeling - it's very, horribly real.
About the only thing I can tell her now is to stop looking at other people and making comparisons. That way lies madness. She's not like normal people, never will be and that's reality. She won't have the same advantages, the same challenges and anyone who tries to compare lives is working apples to oranges.
Me? I've grappled with her issues on the behalf on my spouse - who died. If I know what it's like, it's still only second-hand.
But I do know. And she's alone, and becoming more so daily. She's angry - and needy. Those two things wear the best-meaning people out, and it's just one of those things. Cliff often mentioned that people got tired of him, and it was okay - he understood. God, he was dead on. But - when you're scared, alone and overloaded, that's not the time you remember other people's needs.
So, I understand. And at the same time - I'm terribly frustrated. I know how scare resources are on the ground there - and I just have to keep saying "try." You can't quit - and things will work their own way through - but I won't lie, it's going to SUCK.
Nobody works so hard just to live than someone chronically ill - and dependent on public assistance. Nobody.
And there is nothing I can do to change that.
*kicks*
ceolyn's bridal shower. I suck.I was hoping to find a Darth Tater, and didn't.
I'm also quite female today, which is some ways is good - but I've been told my body is playing games with my head in this regard, and I should ignore the fact. It's also been a full cycle now, and I still don't know if I have insurance coverage to go foward with Dr. Whiz-bang. I shall remind his office of this fact Monday. Gr.
There are no good answers for
being_homeless. What kind of system is it that when you finally qualify for Medicare, it's bad news? Ours. Mean it.And the worst part? She's not over-reacting. And I'm not trying to minimize any part of what she's feeling - it's very, horribly real.
About the only thing I can tell her now is to stop looking at other people and making comparisons. That way lies madness. She's not like normal people, never will be and that's reality. She won't have the same advantages, the same challenges and anyone who tries to compare lives is working apples to oranges.
Me? I've grappled with her issues on the behalf on my spouse - who died. If I know what it's like, it's still only second-hand.
But I do know. And she's alone, and becoming more so daily. She's angry - and needy. Those two things wear the best-meaning people out, and it's just one of those things. Cliff often mentioned that people got tired of him, and it was okay - he understood. God, he was dead on. But - when you're scared, alone and overloaded, that's not the time you remember other people's needs.
So, I understand. And at the same time - I'm terribly frustrated. I know how scare resources are on the ground there - and I just have to keep saying "try." You can't quit - and things will work their own way through - but I won't lie, it's going to SUCK.
Nobody works so hard just to live than someone chronically ill - and dependent on public assistance. Nobody.
And there is nothing I can do to change that.
*kicks*
