Today is fired. Not only did I have one the worst days on record (and they've been a series lately), I come home and get the phone call from Mom.
I had three aunts living yesterday - the one who was always proud of me, no matter what I did or if I fell on my face...has died. She was the widow of my favorite uncle who passed when I was 19, nearly thirty years ago and has missed him daily ever since.
I can't quibble. She'd survived cervical cancer with some of the worst side effects from the radiation you can imagine - both digestive and kidney damage, to the point she'd been on dialysis for years. She ended her days in a convalescent home in Stockton, after a bowel obstruction surgery deteriorated into MRSA...and they couldn't quite get on top of it.
I also can't travel for her funeral - the airfares are just too much. Nobody can. Mom wants to go - but she needs to be escorted, and nobody can do it. (I might also add that trying to make this herculean effort at this point? Please. She's beyond enjoying it, and it's too late. It's ridiculous.)
I don't like it. I don't have to like it. Matter of fact, I'm pretty steamed about it.
And I get to go in to work tomorrow and get reamed. Don't ask. I can't talk about it anyway.
I had three aunts living yesterday - the one who was always proud of me, no matter what I did or if I fell on my face...has died. She was the widow of my favorite uncle who passed when I was 19, nearly thirty years ago and has missed him daily ever since.
I can't quibble. She'd survived cervical cancer with some of the worst side effects from the radiation you can imagine - both digestive and kidney damage, to the point she'd been on dialysis for years. She ended her days in a convalescent home in Stockton, after a bowel obstruction surgery deteriorated into MRSA...and they couldn't quite get on top of it.
I also can't travel for her funeral - the airfares are just too much. Nobody can. Mom wants to go - but she needs to be escorted, and nobody can do it. (I might also add that trying to make this herculean effort at this point? Please. She's beyond enjoying it, and it's too late. It's ridiculous.)
I don't like it. I don't have to like it. Matter of fact, I'm pretty steamed about it.
And I get to go in to work tomorrow and get reamed. Don't ask. I can't talk about it anyway.
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Date: 2008-09-09 04:22 am (UTC)All I can say beyond "You have my sympathies".
I'm around if you wanna talk.
C.
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Date: 2008-09-09 04:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-09 04:30 am (UTC)I am very very sorry.
Date: 2008-09-09 04:34 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-09 04:35 am (UTC)(also: if you need to talk, i'm around <3)
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Date: 2008-09-09 04:48 am (UTC)I'm so sorry for your loss.
I hope things get better soon for you and your family.
*Sends good vibes and wishes*
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Date: 2008-09-09 05:04 am (UTC)Today sucks so hard. I'm so sorry.
:(
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Date: 2008-09-09 07:29 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-09 07:32 am (UTC)I'm so sorry.
I wish I could give you some homemade tomato soup.
It's comfort food that isn't bad for you.
More hugs.
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Date: 2008-09-09 12:16 pm (UTC)If you didn't feel this way, even a little bit, there'd be something wrong with you, you know...
I'm so sorry for your loss...
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Date: 2008-09-09 12:39 pm (UTC)My deepest sympathy. Lost an uncle earlier this year.
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Date: 2008-09-09 02:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-09 03:45 pm (UTC)Hugs, tissues, and tea are offered, both for your aunt, and for the up-coming problem, whatever it is.
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Date: 2008-09-09 04:42 pm (UTC)Hugs.
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Date: 2008-09-09 05:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-09-09 05:54 pm (UTC)Love you and thanks for being you. You are one of the strong spirits who have kept me going though the tough times I've been through.
Here's wishing you a better tomorrow. {{hugs}}
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Date: 2008-09-09 11:22 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2008-09-10 05:47 am (UTC)It may sound stupid, but I wish they had services that could be broadcast, like the Metropolitan Opera does with HD broadcasts of it's performances in movie theaters.
I can see funeral parlors with the video conferencing chapels now...