I do not - and never WANT to - understand the reasoning behind putting any part of your life in someone else's hands. Every time I did it - from the youngest age I can recall - it did not end well for me. Not age six, not age sixteen, not twenty-six...not ever.
And I've been married twice. No, that does not mean I can assume anything. The only thing I can predict is a lot of grief if either of us decides to quit and move to Tahiti without warning. Since neither of us are built that way, we both get up, go to work and make enough money to pay our way through life. (We kinda like it that way as well. Who knew.)
Nobody is going to do it for us. And even if by some fascinating set of circumstances that were to change? I'd ask for a lump sum payment and manage it myself.
Nobody. Nobody gets a single opportunity to run my life without my permission.
I ask for help. I negotiate every part of it. I anticipate, plan and execute just about every daily task. I am also very good at tap dancing, juggling and just plain bulldozing my way through whatever you want to toss at me. People say I think well 'outside the box.' Guys, every time I went to 'the box,' it was empty. Figure it out.
I do NOT expect anyone to make it all better for me.
I make conscious work out of being kind - because I know damn well if I don't, Life isn't going to fart it up out of the ground instead.
I try not to waste my time. Please don't be surprised if I'm succinct and blunt to the point of pain in my desire not to waste yours. I'm not nice to you when you ask what I think, and nice isn't going to help you improve. "This doesn't make sense, and it's unscannable." is not an bad place to start.
I have a nasty temper few people see anymore in full bloom. And I really don't think anyone deserves it, either. If ever I suspect you're going to get it - I'll leave, first. Not rushing out of the room slamming doors. Just...gone. Don't worry - it's all me. If I can't find a way to be around you, I won't be. That's MY responsbility. Nobody else's, including yours.
Up to that point? I'll gauge whether or not you're listening. Then I'll decide how much effort to put into it. I'm not everyone's cup of tea and really? I'm not into forcing myself on others. That's also not cool.
I throw people in the pool. You may be next.
Fer the love of mud...if I call the cops on you in fear of your life, I'll be either in the car waiting, or on the line with them while they're banging on your door - it won't anonymous and you sure as HELL will have me to deal with once things are sorted out. Believe it. No, I don't consider that much of a threat - and it's your life, after all. I'm not going to value it more than you do, dumbass. Could that be your problem?
It's the middle of October, and the horns and tail are showing. Today, you get the sharp end. Quit the whining and get your hands busy. Nobody is going to save you. You are going to have to save yourself, and I sure hope you had your Wheaties this moring. From here, it looks like you have your work cut out for you.
Working hard works. It's the only constant I've known in my life. Got an issue? Throw some effort at it (and use some smarts, too, m'kay?) - and accept it may not be what you want at the end. That also shows some smarts and maturity, too. I'll be watching for it.
Now, to just get people to return phone calls. THAT would be something today, lemme tellya.
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