Oh right. Yeah.
Feb. 3rd, 2006 10:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
2/3/62 - that means he'd have been 43 today?
Inconceivable. I'd have never gave him that long - and the more years pass, the further and further away he becomes. His place in my memory becomes more static, and I think of things both good and bad that have come since because he has gone. Not in terms of why he was here. Or was here at all - unfair as that is.
I take him with me every day. My job title could be rewritten to include "engineer" and I can hear him laughing. I look at travelling internationally and shrug. I fear little these days - blame him.
I miss him - and I'm glad he's not here. He missed 9/11 - and everything since, and I think he's better off for it.
And I think - that's the just the way of it. In any case, nobody is asking me what I think of it -
Inconceivable. I'd have never gave him that long - and the more years pass, the further and further away he becomes. His place in my memory becomes more static, and I think of things both good and bad that have come since because he has gone. Not in terms of why he was here. Or was here at all - unfair as that is.
I take him with me every day. My job title could be rewritten to include "engineer" and I can hear him laughing. I look at travelling internationally and shrug. I fear little these days - blame him.
I miss him - and I'm glad he's not here. He missed 9/11 - and everything since, and I think he's better off for it.
And I think - that's the just the way of it. In any case, nobody is asking me what I think of it -