Something to think about -
Jan. 11th, 2006 05:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kyburgI'm sitting here waiting for processes to finish so I can collect some test data, store it and then go get some food.
Boy, today has sucked donkey balls. Either someone slipped me so mango (unlikely), or these hives are directly stress-related. Bad? How about thinking about how much more time has to pass before the suicide clause on the life insurance goes away? This is a trait my sister saw in her son, so I don't feel too bad about it. We screw up, we time ourselves out. He was doing it before he was seven. Sis had to tell him it was time to quit "timing out" - I remember.
I also recall when I was in Switzerland, what a grand adventure everything was - and there was nobody I could tell about it. To show someone something neat, I had to buy it and ship it to them. Even then, it took weeks for the communication loop to complete - it was before the days of commonplace internet, and we never did get the computer up. I had a Compuserve account - but never used it. The hardest part of that experience was the isolation - and having a great time, but nobody else got the benefit of it but me.
Life is a grand adventure, but if all you have to show for it is your personal erudition - it's pretty lonely. You know the people "who live for their own enjoyment," right? I've know a lot of them in their 80's and 90's - I grew up in a retirement community, after all. Selfish, mean, small-spirited folks.
I did not want to grow up to be one of them.
And really, who else wants to listen to me talk about myself or care? I think I got a really good education, good parenting and have a very alert, curious mind - isn't that worth anything? I love doing homework -
I want to leave something behind besides a pile of junk. Is that asking so much?
Boy, today has sucked donkey balls. Either someone slipped me so mango (unlikely), or these hives are directly stress-related. Bad? How about thinking about how much more time has to pass before the suicide clause on the life insurance goes away? This is a trait my sister saw in her son, so I don't feel too bad about it. We screw up, we time ourselves out. He was doing it before he was seven. Sis had to tell him it was time to quit "timing out" - I remember.
I also recall when I was in Switzerland, what a grand adventure everything was - and there was nobody I could tell about it. To show someone something neat, I had to buy it and ship it to them. Even then, it took weeks for the communication loop to complete - it was before the days of commonplace internet, and we never did get the computer up. I had a Compuserve account - but never used it. The hardest part of that experience was the isolation - and having a great time, but nobody else got the benefit of it but me.
Life is a grand adventure, but if all you have to show for it is your personal erudition - it's pretty lonely. You know the people "who live for their own enjoyment," right? I've know a lot of them in their 80's and 90's - I grew up in a retirement community, after all. Selfish, mean, small-spirited folks.
I did not want to grow up to be one of them.
And really, who else wants to listen to me talk about myself or care? I think I got a really good education, good parenting and have a very alert, curious mind - isn't that worth anything? I love doing homework -
I want to leave something behind besides a pile of junk. Is that asking so much?
