Oh right. Yeah.

[kyburg]

2/3/62 - that means he'd have been 43 today?

Inconceivable. I'd have never gave him that long - and the more years pass, the further and further away he becomes. His place in my memory becomes more static, and I think of things both good and bad that have come since because he has gone. Not in terms of why he was here. Or was here at all - unfair as that is.

I take him with me every day. My job title could be rewritten to include "engineer" and I can hear him laughing. I look at travelling internationally and shrug. I fear little these days - blame him.

I miss him - and I'm glad he's not here. He missed 9/11 - and everything since, and I think he's better off for it.

And I think - that's the just the way of it. In any case, nobody is asking me what I think of it -

Comments

[penguido.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[shirasade]

I'm so sorry, darling. *hugs you*

[technoshaman.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I think you're right... there are things that happen that are terrible on the face of them, but for which one is better for in the long run... and Change Is.

[tibicina.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

And I know what you mean about 9/11. I miss my grandmother, but I'm also glad that she never saw what has happened to the country since. She would have hated it.

[silverkun.livejournal.com]

You're not the only one who misses him, hon. He's well missed, but every word you've placed here has the ring of truth.

-R

[kyburg.livejournal.com]

Speak of him to those around you. Very few of us left who knew him for himself - and for people to know him only through me? Unfair. Terribly unfair.

[tomlemos.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry.

[nagasvoice.livejournal.com]

hugs...