Is it Friday yet? Five more minutes...okay

[kyburg]

I give up. I've joined a new community, fortysomething and now have over 500 journals on the list I read daily.

I have a choice to leave things as they are - or begin cutting. I've already stopped taking feeds from a lot of the communities I've subscribed to, checking in that once in a while that is usually all they need to stay current.

Guess I get to see how many people are still posting - or have gone friends only and not included me in the cut. It happens.

Hey.

Ask anyone.

This is nice. However, if you'd think I'd pass up a chance to step away from this computer and meet up with any of you, face-to-face, you're nuts.

I spent many, many years being the only one of me I knew. The only one my age, with my interests, my gender - what have you.

The fact that I'm not the only one anymore is wonderful.

--

One of the first things I learned about Jim through a third party who had known him longer, was that "all we need are books and a little food, and we're fine." From his older brother -

Jim has a new book from his favorite author - he's been fed, and he is very content right now. Not to mention cute, but I'm not biased either, right?

*sighs* Haven't heard boo from the Hartmans about the move this weekend - and feeling the need to just let it lie. I asked for help, when I needed it and was very specific as to what exactly I needed help with. Is it wrong to be a bit passive-aggressive about this and expect them to ask me for what they need? I've told them to let me know - and I'm feeling the need for downtime. I'm cranky and sharp and a number of things that really need some space to dissipate.

I guess that answers itself. Me first, Jim second and everyone else after that.

Bed now. I already took an hour or so nap after dinner tonight.

Comments

[being-homeless.livejournal.com]

why would someone cut YOU?
*sighs* you are too cool to get cut. :(

[kyburg.livejournal.com]

People drop me like a hot rock at times, dear. I do have that effect sometimes. *grins*

If I find out why, I'm lucky. I am just not everyone's cup of tea - viva diversity!

In other news, could you use $20 as foodstamp insurance? And don't you need a new pair of sneakers?

[pseudicide.livejournal.com]

I understand the friends list explosion. It's somethign i've been dealing with for a while, and i'm only at 100...

[kyburg.livejournal.com]

Well, with helping out with the project29 group, I would expect that to increase further...found some really neat folks over there, too!

[pseudicide.livejournal.com]

Erk, it's a chore to not have my list explode believe me...

[riverheart.livejournal.com]

I so want to meet you sometime!

In the past day or so, I've started doing a bunch of work in the new nopity community, as one of the moderators. In part, it's a healing thing for me; in part, it's so I can be there for others. It's a give-back.

So much of what I see there breaks my heart, especially those who write about the violence done to them as children. I'm going to be needing emotional support myself, too, as this is bringing up a few issues I thought I'd buried too deep to find.

I have to do this. I want to do this, and I feel almost called to do this.

[kyburg.livejournal.com]

Somehow, I can't help but think that is going to happen soon - like in the next year or so. Jim has never been to Canada, and I want to redo the one trip I did with Cliff through the national parks between Alberta and British Columbia (drop dead gorgeous!) -

Don't forget to make time for yourself to "process" what you see on nopity - it is going to be critical for you to continue.

Are you sure you don't want to go into social work?

[ms-hecubus.livejournal.com]

I do that with some of my communities too. I'm on 4 communities that are extremely high volume and it would cause me to miss posts by actual friends. I also have an "actual people" filter that I use when I want to read just the important stuff.

[kyburg.livejournal.com]

I have resisted like mad not to filter anything - I get it all, all the time.

Actual people...*chuckles* Everyone on the list is a real person to me - who can show up on my doorstep at a moments notice. Really. And I try to treat everyone that way, with that assumption in mind.

[ms-hecubus.livejournal.com]

I know a few people that have second journals for art, photography, etc. I leave those off of my "actual people" filter, along with the communities. I started it when I was offline for two days and found out how many posts I had to wade through.

[musicalchaos.livejournal.com]

I know I'm not completely friends only, and have cut back on how much I post of late, but I thought I'd included you in those filters? hmmmm *goes to check* Yep. Mmmm... though, despite not commenting often, I do enjoy reading your posts, and if I'm ever back out in the Cali area, I'll make it a point to let you know and see about meeting.

[kyburg.livejournal.com]

Thanks! We'll go to the beach - I know a lot of nifty places that are cheap and just too much fun!

[musicalchaos.livejournal.com]

Cool... I haven't been to the beach in ages! *chuckle* *Starts stocking up on SPF 5000* *whispers* My icon isn't lying, I'm a natural redhead and I burn like it too. *grin*

[zyrc.livejournal.com]

i peer in at fortysomething from time to time. some days i actually entertain the notion of adding it. then i tiptoe away, quickly.

denial.

[kyburg.livejournal.com]

A river in Africa - actually, it's nice to just swim in waters with people my age again. It's been a long time between everyone WAAAY older and everyone WAAAY younger - not that it's a problem, mind.

But when I complain about repeating my political adolescence, I'm getting tired of the eye rolling.

[lupaloo.livejournal.com]

Just wanted to pop up and say that I read you and you're included on my friends filter! I understand the need to trim things down from time to time.

Don't know when I'll ever get out to Cali, but if/when I do you'll be hearing from me! :)

[kyburg.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I'm a good native guide, so you make sure you look me up -

[storvik.livejournal.com]

I don't have that many people/communities/syndicated feeds in any one journal... but when you add my journals' friends list up, it's pretty intimidating.

[cowgrrl.livejournal.com]

500 journals to keep up with? Wow! And yet, I see you just added me. I've added you back. :)