Not one of the good days -

[kyburg]

Doing the math and realizing that I will have aged out of the China program if I wait for them to send a referral, based on the current rate referrals are being done. They're only getting through one week of LIDs per calendar month - they're over 60 weeks out from our LID. That's over five and a half years to wait - called the agency, and got "well, they can't continue a program that way. It has to start speeding up sometime."

o_O?

Dude, I'm turning 48 this year. They shut the door on me after I turn 50.

How does NEVER sound?

Yeah, I got another call in to the founder of the agency. Time to set some deadlines.

It doesn't help that the department has had three babies this summer - all to wives of guys I work with.

Oh, and the boss got married. She already has a son - so there you go.

I'd like a wife. She could have taken the computer to the shop, and then cleaned up the office so we could both use the other computer in there. (I had to reorganize a bookcase, reshelve books, dust - and redust the desk several times - discover that the circuit breaker had been tripped, fix that....) - and maybe I could actually, I dunno, WRITE DRAW SEW SING something besides trying to figure out how the bleep to get the debt levels under control without living on Costco hot dogs three meals a day.

And keep going in circles. The same circles. Daily.

HELLO HIGH WATER MARK THIS IS IT

No, I really can't think about living child-free the rest of my life. There's no thinking to do. This has BEEN my life so far - and just getting older? Wow. You can hear the boredom now, right? I'd start buying a spot in an assisted living center, except who wants that to look forward to?

No wonder I spend so much time playing Sims. I can at least watch somebody having a life.

Comments

[luscious-purple.livejournal.com]

I thought you are turning 47 this year?!? I'm the one who's turning 48. Unless you have your birth year wrong in your profile.

*gentle hugs* in any case.

[jrittenhouse.livejournal.com]

I agree with the agency people. I know there's a slowdown this time of the year because of the bloody heat.

[riverheart.livejournal.com]

I know *exactly* how you feel (as you know), having already aged out and medded out of the China program. Great big hugs to you; if I were there, I would give them to you in person. You deserve kids if anybody does. I sincerely hope that you get them soon.

[tomlemos.livejournal.com]

No, I really can't think about living child-free the rest of my life. There's no thinking to do. This has BEEN my life so far - and just getting older? Wow. You can hear the boredom now, right? I'd start buying a spot in an assisted living center, except who wants that to look forward to?

damn. that's something I need to think about. I'm 45, gonna be 46. If M and I are gonna adopt, we'd better get busy soon.

[scarcrest.livejournal.com]

I'm so, so sorry this is happening.

[drlaurac.livejournal.com]

They've gotta speed up. Those little babies are getting older!

sincerly yours

[fuhgettaboutit.livejournal.com]

Oddley enuff I think of you often and your adoption trauma/drama.Just had to let you know THAT when i think of you and your husband I can visualize a child.ItS gonna happen I know it. Positive thought. Fuck the negative ones.They are good for noone.Noella

[kimberlychapman.livejournal.com]

You have my total sympathies.

As I did the infertility gig far, far, far too many people would oh-so-helpfully ask, "Why don't you just adopt?" as if it's like going down to Target and picking up new socks. Only people who have gone through it have the faintest clue of how hard it all is.

And since I know when you're childless and feeling down about that there's not much anyone can say to make it better, I'll just nod understandingly and hope it works out for you.

And maybe use this contrasting icon to hope for a good roll soon.